DEMJDR’s blog

WHY?

2009-12-28T06:49:57Z

WHY FUCKING WHY!!!!??????????? WHY AM I NO LONGER ALLOWED TO GET ON MY FEET! WHY DO I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF PLAYING THE VICTIM! AM I JUST MEDIOCRE? WHY HAVE I HAD THE OPPORTUNITIES I'VE HAD THEN? WHY AM I SO F(*&ING BROKE! WHY DOES IT ALWAYS LOOK LIK...

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bad?

2009-12-05T06:50:31Z

Is practicing putting a finger to your head and pulling the trigger a bad thing?

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Success

2009-12-05T06:25:33Z

Friends, acquaintances call me a success Yet I consider myself a failure Yes I succeeded.....once upon a time, I guess for some I succeed now.. but when my ideal was always different... I have not succeeded. Not being able to support my mom not be...

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Looking back

2009-12-01T06:47:28Z

I remember walking home on the day of 9/11 thinking i was going to die saying goodbye to my mom on the computer. As I was walking through times square waiting for another plane to hit i looked back on my life and thought, wow, it's been great, i'v...

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Hopeless

2009-12-01T06:11:13Z

Lying in bed eating everything I can think of, chips, cake, cookies.... my form of alcoholism hopeless IRS......Mother.......no way to win... no way to feel like a human again.... no way to feel unbroken.....successful......worthwhile.... like a m...

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This life

2009-11-25T08:30:34Z

Is it too late? Am I wasting my time? Why am I still here? How am I still here? Grateful...yes....most of the time.... Happy? Well. Do I still serve a purpose in this life? or am I just taking up space? has all my truly good fortune passed? has my...

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Broken?

2009-11-20T08:08:08Z

Haven't been able to apply the advice of June 9th. Wondering if I will ever come alive again.... or if i am just decaying slowly before my very eyes and watching it all happen in front of me while being left behind. Am I being sucked into my head ...

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Imagination

2009-06-23T06:16:56Z

You just need to let your imagination free, you can do whatever you imagine...whatever you want. (paraphrased) Montreal Art Shop....ron

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What do you do when...

2009-05-15T03:26:49Z

What do you do when you are doing everything "right" and it doesn't feel good, doesn't payoff in any way, doesn't "change your life", doesn't show you that this is what you should do more often. What do you do when you choose "right" and there is...

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Hopeless

2009-04-15T02:49:03Z

Is there anyone in this fu#%ing world I can trust?

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